I celebrate all of you.

artist: Natiq Jalil

artist: Natiq Jalil

I’m uneasy about openly celebrating certain holidays — for example, Mother’s Day.

I grow queasy as the day approaches. I start to feel sad about those who wished for children, but could not.

I think of those who have had horrendous childhood memories and abuse.

My heart breaks again for those grieving the loss of a mom.

I start to weep for those who have lost a child.

I think of those who chose not to have children but are subjected to the question(s), “Why don’t want one?” [As if their decision doesn’t matter! Blasphemy!]

I feel equally uncomfortable about the commercialism.

My own story was such that at 25 some coldhearted doctor announced (while still in the not-so-lovely-stirrup-position-adorned-in-a-floral-paper gown), “You’ll never have a child because of adhesions and scar tissue, endometriosis and multiple cysts.”

He was wrong and really, truly insensitive (I have other words, but I will refrain).

I am grateful for being a mother. It is the path I chose. Within a few blinks, I can pivot into memories of sleepless nights, colds, flus, snot and poop.

I almost stop breathing when I remember staying with my son while in the ICU. I have no idea where my strength came from then or now.

It just is.

I am a mother but also a teacher. I am kind and giving. I am a writer and poet.

We are more than just-one-attribute. I celebrate all of you.

Much love and kindness. ~ Carolyn

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About Carolyn Riker

A creative explorer using the magic of imagination, surfing the sea of understanding and finding bridges to connect it all.
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3 Responses to I celebrate all of you.

  1. D.B. Moone says:

    I have tears, but no words other than to say that this is beautiful.

    Liked by 1 person

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